Maybe it’s our ages, I’m 33 and my wife is 38, but even 2 kids seems like one too many at times. I don’t understand the people who pourposfully have a gaggle of offspring. If anyhting, the world doesn’t need it, but how they can keep up is beyond me. My 2yr old loves his baby brother, but I still feel like he’s losing out because the other one requires attention and vice-versa. And as far as money goes, I hope my kids aren’t very needy, since I didn’t surpass my parents in achievment (so I guess they failed), so my kids are going to “want” for plenty.

I can’t imagine paying for college, let alone a car or simply school clothes each year. I park cars. Although I make way more money then anyone would think, I’m still pretty poor. Hey, maybe this blog will show someone my skills and will lead somewhere, but short of a miracle, my kids aren’t going to be happy when they finally realize the cars they we’re dealt.

So to prevent any further burdens on society, I had my balls chopped. I feel almost  indifferent about it, like nothing happened (sans the pain). I can’t wait to have worry free sex, but I can’t help but feeling the slightest bit incomplete.  Is that weird??

I’ve always been different, but did the acid really open the doors? When I was 17 or 18 I took 4 hits of “flying triangles” and had my typical weekend party (mom went to boyfriends house every weekend and we took advantage). We were watching a VHS tape (that’s how old I am) of the The Doors and just as the Indian Spirit “jumped into Jim”, I’ve always believed to a small degree, Jim’s “spirit jumped into me”… sort of. I ended up having a “bad trip” that night, kicked everyone out and died in my room for a few minutes…. I think.

It was as if something was awakened inside of me. I felt the energy from the phone tingling in my fingertips as I called my mom (at 1 am) and dad (whom lived 20 min away, about as far as my mom was as well) to tell them “I’m dying, come home and say goodbye”. I also tried to call my grandmother and thankfully I just couldn’t make the call go through, as if my energy knew better and was blocking the signal. I then went into my room, turned off all the lights and sounds and sat in the bewilderment that is 4 hits of strong acid. At some point, it became too much.

As fuzzy as it is, I clearly remember “giving up” and falling back on my bed. This is long before I ever was into anything even closely resembling “conspiracy theory”, but I distinctly knew at that point, I died and the vision bestowed upon me was that of the “all seeing eye” on the back of the one dollar bill. It was as if I was looking at this whitish-blue blazing ball of energy, awesome in size and completely dwarfing me. Although electric in appearance, the structure was vividly present, giving no doubt to shape or design. I’d never really paid attention to that symbol before, so the reason for this stellar hallucination wasn’t clear, but at that moment, I knew I was looking at God.

I remember thinking “no, not yet!!!!!” and instantly I “fell” back into my body and “awoke” with a deep breath and a full body jolt… like they do in the movies. I wasn’t sober, but I was clearer then I’d ever been. I could see the oneness and futility in the world at the same time and about five minutes later, both my parents showed up. I was in no mood to talk, but as they should, they started into me.

The rest of the details are irrelevant, but that’s the day I believe I was “awakened”. I actually began writing poetry and continue to write to this day. I’m also obsessed with knowledge and the more I learn about the images I saw, the more I wonder what truly happened. I’ve actually had someone else tell me an extremely similar story, all seeing eye and everything and that just adds to the mystery.

Since my trip, I’ve been on a quest for knowledge. The only problem is, the more I see, the more I want to stick my head in the sand. Being open to all possibilities allows even the “craziest” thoughts (though not religion surprisingly) to find a home in your head. I can’t say I’m any better for it either. Not only does my music remain unsuccessful (I can only assume its due to the fact I don’t push the typical poison weaponized by the rap/hiphop industry although everyday people all over the world dig it), I’m constantly scrutinized by my peers for showing genuine concern for their well being.

The reason I spread information is because I care, as cheesy as that may sound. The reality is that most people don’t care and honestly, I’m jealous. I get nothing but stress from seeing a chalkboard sky, nothing but disillusionment from watching the farce that is the “political debates” and nothing but total anguish from history, be it yesterday or 400 yrs ago, the more you look, the sicker it seems.

So again I ask this: Why do I see this, what is my benefit and can someone please tell me where I can get a “blue pill” and “wake up in my bed and forget about everything that’s happened”???

Last night was the 3 game of the Tigers/Yankees series. I couldn’t care less about the distraction baseball provides, so the game is of no importance to me. What was happening in the sky above the game IS important and I’d like to know what people think of what’s being done to them.

About an hour before the game started, the sky was clear, then the spraying began. For the next 30 to 40 minutes planes made East to West lines in the skies over and around Comerica Park. The spray, as it typically does, eventually spread into a soup like haze in the airspace surrounding the stadium. It only lasted a half hour or so, so that eliminates the “weather condition” or “that’s just what planes do” arguments.

If you are unaware of the phenomonon known as chemtrails or just want to know more about it because you’ve noticed that every few days the sky looks like a engineers chalkboard, there are 2 movies on YouTube worth checking out. I suggest you educate yourself on the subject before weighing in, but what do you think is going on? Are you concerned? And Most importantly, what can we do about it?

“What in the World are they spraying” (watch first)  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jf0khstYDLA

“Why in the World are they spraying” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mEfJO0-cTis

One of the most important things about this blog is “alternative” education. If there is one thing you take from everything said and done from here on out, I hope it’s this: the term “conspiracy theory” is a weapon that’s being used against you to keep you from openly thinking about ideas and concepts that go against or challenge the carefully crafted image we’re constantly shown (yeah, it’s gonna be this kind of blog). The word “conspiracy” means: well now this is interesting. I stopped here to copy and paste the definition from an online source and was surprised at my findings. What used to simply mean “2 or more people actively pursuing an outcome through interaction (basically)”, now has a much more sinister tone. Every definition was attached to crime and negativity, as if part of some sort of conspiracy (sorry, couldn’t resist).  This isn’t that surprising when one considers “conspiracy theory” websites, videos, blogs, etc. are seeing a meteoric rise in popularity and “those who control information, control population”. “Language” is one of the most important tools used against us, often without us even knowing. An interesting side note: I wrote this blog entry in a 3 day time period and today (the last day), 10/12/12 is a big Chemtrail Spray day (which will be a main blog topic) which prompted a friend to ask me about Agenda 21 (another firecracker) links because “everything she could find was PRO Agenda 21”. That’s extremely bizarre because until as recently as today, from my personal experience, there has been nothing but anti-Agenda 21 information by “conspiracy” sites. The government, who doesn’t deny Agenda 21′s existence outright, doesn’t (or DIDN’T) like to talk about it either. This shows my point from earlier, he controls the info controls the people, and that someone or thing is realizing that people are looking and asking questions and they’re trying to curb the thinking. So, just like the Bible, if you want to control people, you control what they think and say first and foremost, regardless of whether or not your argument has any truth to it. If you control the perception, truth is an illousion. That way, the people will govern themselves out of fear of upsetting the heard or being labeled a “hate monger”, “racist” or my favorite, “Anti-Semitic” (which we’ll talk about another time).

Dave Chappelle put it best on Inside the Actors Studio a few years back. He was talking about his Africa “trip” and the perceived notion of him going crazy. He says something along the lines of (because I don’t remember word for word) “the worst thing to do is to label someone crazy. People who get to sit in this seat (meaning the interview he was doing), people who “make it”, are strong people. It takes a strong person to get this far and when these same strong  people: Martin running down the street with a gun screaming “they’re trying to kill me”, Mariah signing a deal for $100 million then going on TRL and stripping, Dave Chappelle going to Africa and walking from a $50 million dollar deal, when these strong people end up doing what we’ve done the worst thing you can do is call them “crazy”. It’s dismissive. There’s a lot more going on behind the scenes in Hollywood than you may think.” Dave was right. There is more than enough evidence, at the very least, to warrant questioning or investigation into what goes on in Hollywood. The rampant pedophilia is among the worst of the accusations, but is ignored by the mainstream. Why?

Why do we conceitedly mock, or simply ignore, anything other than the “official” story/denial? If thousands of engineers, scientists, physicists, and a whole bunch of other documented “smart people” say the official 9/11 story doesn’t add up SCIENTIFICLLY, why does that not warrant an investigation? If your eyes watching the Zapuder film show you the President being shot from the front, plain as day, why do you let “them” tell you otherwise? There is so much evidence disproving the official JFK assassination story, yet the government isn’t interested. Why? Wouldn’t you investigate EVERY lead possible if you were looking into who killed the President? Wouldn’t you call EVERY witness? The Warren Commission (those in change of the investagtion and “official” account of what happened to Kennedy) didn’t and the government still hasn’t, why? RFK, MLK, Malcolm X, Lennon, these are all murders that have tremendous CIA and FBI connections, yet none of it is worth a full investigation with all of “today’s” resources??? In 1999 a court in Tennessee found the US government in fact did have connections to MLK’s murder, yet you (the majority of people) don’t know that. Isn’t that weird that mainstream media didn’t pick up the story and run with it? Why? http://www.debunkingskeptics.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=12&t=557&start=0 Just look at the info, since mainstream won’t cover it, fringe outlets have to, but the information is real!

By no means am I claiming to “know” everything, or really much all all. I have a lot of ideas however, many of which a lot of people would jump to call “crazy” or “conspiracy theory” with nothing to back their point of view but fear. They just dismiss myself and others ideas without even looking to see if there’s validity and a lot of good is lost. Everything is worth giving some thought to, especially when its potentially so important. The thing is, most of them aren’t “my” ideas.  Like most knowledge, thoughts, ideas, etc., we are just regurgitating someone elses ideas or trains of thought. We may put our own spin on things, even combine other peoples theories into a beautiful tapestry of truth, finely weaving the scattered points together. But its still other people’s information. Unless you’re the one doing the “groundbreaking” work (and even then, the more we research, the more we find how primitive we just might be in comparison to the “primitive” civilizations of yest-er-millenia), you’re just repeating. That being said, what I am good at is collecting the information and either turning it into song, or weaving tapestries I happily share with anyone willing to engage me. That is where this blog comes in.

I have 2 major goals with this blog. Most importantly, its about providing an outlet for information that isn’t readily talked about. I seem to have an unusual take on things when it comes to “conspiracy theory”. I see a lot of what people like David Icke, David Wilcock, Alex Jones, etc. have to say. I respect them tremendously for what they do and greatly appreciate the work they put in since they are where I get a lot of my information. However, Alex Jones is a devout Christian and to me, the Bible is the first thing I think would be corrupted if domination was the goal. I’m always amazed with people who think the Bible is the “Word of God” himself, especially women and those of color. This is getting off topic, but you see what I mean and you can bet there will be many future blogs on the subject.

The web, despite what people say, is a phenomenal source of information. It’s really no different than books, except that it can be edited when something is proven wrong. The “purest” who says books are the only way to go are kidding themselves. Limiting oneself because of any idealistic point of view is counter productive. As almost a microcosm of what life is all about, when it comes to knowledge, both books and the web are your best bet. A miscegenation of old and new is the only way to achieve optimum results. If the white man only would have embraced the red man culture when he “discovered” “America”, instead of wiping him (and her, but she was more for raping) out, imagine how wonderful life might be.

My second goal is personal. I honestly believe music is one of the biggest global influences, especially to those ages 13 and up (when you begin to “come online” so to speak). Music crosses all borders and unites people who otherwise would have little in common. My music is something different compared to everything out now, genre-less and what I believe to be the refreshing change we’re all clamoring for. Poetry is one the oldest forms of entertainment, yet it seems almost impossible to bring it mainstream. I think that’s due to the honesty and power poetry has and like Spiderman, the responsibility doesn’t allow it to be corrupted into the weapon rap/hiphop has become. Accoprding to insiders, the entire entertainment industry is a dark and evil place by most people’s standards. And if I’m truly honest, I’m usually not a fan of most other people’s poetry. I end up spending most of the time  I’m reading or listening “fixing mistakes” I believe (which is the key to the statement) they have made either mathematically or rhythmically. It’s not the most noble thing to do I know, I just can’t help it, its how my brain works. I do it with music too. I do respect anyone who puts their thoughts on paper or anyone who expresses themselves through art, but when it comes to song and structure, most poets can’t do it. I can.

I recently had some industry “pros” like, then 3 weeks later change their minds and dump all over my work, repeatedly saying its “unmarketable”. I beg to differ and I am using this blog to prove it. Not only will I be posting older poems that are no good for a song either because of structure or length, but I will constantly encourage readers to go to my SoundCloud page and listen for themselves. I ask that you are honest in your critique, even if it’s the worst thing you’ve ever heard, please tell me why. If you dig it, all I ask is that you tell others and spread the word. If I can make enough noise with this blog (including the incredible success I’ve had for a guy in my circumstances, but that will be a blog for a later date), then I’ll have a nice plate of crow to swallow.

This blog is another step in my journey to right some of the wrongs I see on a daily basis. Religion, Government, the corruption and coverup of many historical events, technology, marriage, kids, life in general will be talked about without the shackles of conformity most writers are subjected to. I will post on as many subjects as I can think of, some of which may just be crazy enough you get your attention. Like me or hate me, please engage the discussions, both sides of the coin are welcomed and encouraged here, I hope you prove me wrong as much as possible! Although it may not be received as well as it would on some other blogs that are more concerned with being PC, you will always know you have my honest opinion without the slightest hint of alternate agenda. If I say it, it’s my opinion and no one will pressure or persuade me to take a side I disagree with, this is a promise. I look forward to talking with anyone willing to talk to me. I hope for open minds, but as long as you’re thinking, even if you’re wrong, it’s better than not thinking and hopefully one of us learns something. I’m honored you spent your time on me, thank you for reading.

Guy R. Williams Jr. (although I will sign with just Guy from now on)

www.soundcloud.com/guyrwilliamsjr (go hear to listen to the best thing you’ve never heard)

P.S. I write like I speak. I may jump subjects, but they are all centered around the same point and I’m assuming you have the intelligence to follow what’s being said as long as you read the whole thing. Most entries won’t be this long, but I do encourage you to read the full entry before jumping in, I may answer something you have issue with at a later point.  It is also my intention to offend you if you’re dumb enough to let someone like me offend you with something as simple as something MY opinion. This blog is a celebration of freedom and namely, free speech and I refuse to apologize for not being afraid to speak my mind. If you are afraid or offended, you are free to not pay attention (until I’m the biggest household name on the planet that is

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